First Day of 4K-Take Two

I am kind of glad to be behind on blogging a little because then when you blog about things a month and a half later you sometimes have an even better perspective on them. :)

Jackson went back to school as most of you know late January, and he has done so great! I really have always known everything happens for a reason, and God is truly in control. But, it really gives me cold chills when it is so evident right before your eyes. I know some people were like, "What?? He is going back?! Where did that come from?" And, yes I thought the same thing. It wasn't something I had planned for, thought a whole lot about I must admit, (and we all know how well planned I am and hate spontaneity), and honestly completely just was decided in a matter of a few hours. It almost feels like a blur. I KNOW it wasn't me calling the school, it wasn't me making the decision. I honestly felt led. And, I know he is in the right place right now. The right school; the right class; and in the right spirit. He needs to know that his disease doesn't stop him! And, I tell you I think he missed it so much he now has a greater appreciation for it. He doesn't whine when it is time to get up or time to rush around to get ready. He doesn't show out when he has to leave the room to get his shot. He doesn't complain to the teacher he needs more snack. That really was not what I was trying to teach him! :) But, hey it all worked out for the better that we aren't experiencing that now.

Has it been an "easy" transition? Nah. Is anything easy with juvenile diabetes? Nah. But, I tell you it has been the best transition. And, I am truly so thankful that God gave me the strength to let go. To let him go and be a kid. Some days when he is gone I feel anxiety, and I pray. I have to admit I tell myself "God is with him. He is not alone." I am not always so in touch with God's work in our lives as I should be. Not that I don't believe He is there. I do! But, I get caught up in my "to do" list and myself and get lost. I find it amazing that this has brought me closer to Him. And, I think it has brought Jackson closer to Him as well.