Where did they go? Jackson's first day of preschool was today. To my surprise, I cried when I dropped him off!! I don't know why I thought I wouldn't (Paul said afterwards he knew I would.) I looked down in the parking lot and the hallways because noone else looked upset! I felt embarassed for some reason. But, my eyes just welled with tears. Happy and sad. The only way I know to describe it was the same way I cried right after I gave birth. It was that same feeling. I just couldn't believe I just "handed him over" to someone else for 3 hours! I made the goodbye really quick as they had instructed us to do, but I wanted to stay! I also cried more when I got home. I felt so cruel for leaving him and wondered if he would be hurt when he realized I was at home with Preston without him. I am nuts!
Jackson on the other hand did great! He actually saw people doing carpool and asked if he could do that next time. And, he walked in ahead of me so I could videotape it all for Dad. He did look a little dazed and nervous right when we walked in. Thankfully his room is the first one on the hallway right by the entrance, so we didn't have far to second guess things. The only bad thing was they had changed his assigned seat since Open House! I thought he was going to go sit on the girl in his old seat. He was so nervous and all he knew to do was to go straight to that seat! But, I quickly helped him find the new seat. (Which is better because the old seat was really a tight squeeze and up against another kid's chair?? I had been worried about that being an issue.)
He hung up his backpack and put away his snackbox with the help of Mrs. Melissa. Then, it was over!
Our neighbor, Kathy (thanks, Kathy!) came over to sit at the house while Preston slept so the first day could be the least chaotic as possible. Preston only slept till 9:30 so hopefully the school days will be somewhat easy for him to adjust to.
BUT...big shocker! Preston won't play! Here I thought having all the toys without having to fight for them or argue over them would make him so ecstatic! But, he doesn't know what to do with himself without his leader! He is lost!!!!
So, my question is where are my babies?
Jackson is at school right now (which thankfully I only have an hour till I pick him up..at least it went fast!). And, I miss him. I didn't think I would, but I do. I feel like a part of me is missing!
Preston is talking in sentences (way early for his age) and seriously is growing up so so fast. Time just flew by with him!
(sigh) Oh well, I promise promise this the longest post I will ever type. I had told Angela and Jemekia this wouldn't be a "dear diary" type of page. But, today was just too emotional. I had to pour my heart out.
The pictures posted today are of the 1st day of school for Jackson and then a cute recent picture of Preston as well. Then to follow are pictures of the babies I was wondering if you had seen. I have lost them somewhere along the way! :(
Oops it won't let me post all those pics together..so I will do a separate post showing the "missing" babies! :)
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